Friday, February 18, 2011

I choose not to censor my dreams because I feel like that's dishonest to the reader and every post like this one is further proof of that.

First, I'm sitting in a room with several people. There are tables around the room and I'm at a table a person next to me, I'm not sure who, and across from me is a girl I know who I'm not going to name. She has suffered from anorexia for a while, which you'll need to know in a second.

We were sitting there when, in the front of the room someone fainted. We watched him (I think it was a him) fall and be caught by a few people around him. (Strangely, we weren't afraid, even though watching people pass out is terrifying.) Then the girl told me, "I can make myself pass out," and I started protesting, because that's disgusting, but she had no sense of self-preservation.

She stood up and she was wearing a tight purple t-shirt and was so skinny that an outline of her stomach was literally showing through her shirt. It was kind of oval shaped and looked like something was trying to get out of her chest. She got up and started pressing her outlined sticking-out stomach onto the edge of the table because apparently that's how she makes herself pass out. I continued protesting, saying "Stop," "Sit down," and "Don't hurt yourself."

But her attempts didn't work anyway, she stayed conscious, wondering aloud why it didn't work this time, and I felt kind of sick and had a stomach ache when I woke up.

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